Confused...as always

What is it that I want to do with this life of mine?
A question that I have asked myself a million times and have been asked a million times...and for some strange reason unknown to myself, the answer is I DON'T KNOW!

I cannot cite confusion as a valid reason for not knowing what it is I want to pursue as a career or vocation or any other word that means the same. Most individuals my age are slightly confused or so I have been led to believe, but most of them have a vague idea about what they would like to do someday when they are 60 or married or whatever, but not me. I am just plain blank.

Now don't take me wrong, I do have interests but I cannot really see a possible future in any of them. I mean, can anyone make a career out of listening to the ethereal compositions of Pink Floyd completely high on marijuana? If anyone does know of such a career path please contact me ASAP!

So is it normal for me to be so confused? Is it possible that the answer is waiting to pounce on me and that I just have to give it time? Only time will tell. Till then I guess I will just roll another joint and wander through THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON...

Jobs, Jobs Jobs!!!

That's all everyone around me seems to be talking about. Everyone I know is in the process of looking for a job or finalising the salary details with a potential employer and to be honest its just depressing as hell. Bitching and moaning about the lack of jobs or lack of job offers, to be more precise, is ok but beyond a point its more like a creeping malaise. I call it a malaise because if you are not careful you end up only talking like the end of the world is near and in the process depressing everyone around you...I, unfortunately, have been guilty of this crime quite often these days.

What is even worse is when individuals, who have jobs, start to crib about how tough it is for freshers to get jobs and how it is a numbers game...yeah like its one big lottery with a cash prize of $1000,000,000,00 and if you play it long enough you are sure to win since the odds are in your favour...BAH!!! Such individuals need to realise that such speel is not always appreciated however good the intentions are and that the reciever of that speel rather drown himself in a barrel of really bad hooch!

Anyway, I don't want to keep complaining, but this was something that has been bugging me like a bad itch on the Gluteus Maximus and I just had to reach over and scratch.

BAH HUMBUG!!!!!

My thoughts whenever someone near me mentions the word D.I.S.S.E.R.T.A.T.I.O.N.

As any reader with my level of intelligence -- which is not much I must say -- would have guessed, I am currently involved in the arduous task of completing my MA dissertation which is due by the end of this month and from the look of things I seem to be doing everything in my power to FAIL!!!

Out of the mandatory 12,000 words (yes I have to spew out a minimum of 12, 000 words) I have achieved a little less than 4,000 and they all comprise of thoughts and observations extracted from various books and articles.

I spend my days trying to decipher various articles which supposedly contribute to my research and watching every damn movie available on the internet on those sites which are boons from the gods since they let financially unstable (broke) students like myself stream a movie for free and watch it on laptops.

With approximately three weeks left I am still behaving as if the damn thing is due in 2050!!! What will happen to me is in the hands of the 62 billion gods and goddesses of the Hindu pantheon. In the words of my friend The OWL, "AIYYYYOOOOOO!"

GENESIS

The creation of this blog is part of the million activities undertaken while working on my MA dissertation. Well to be honest, the blog was created a few months back but I never got around to actually 'customising' it and adding to its content. Well let's hope I stick to it and keep adding some interesting tit-bits from my life and the confused garble which is my mind.